Finals

Para sa mga graduating students :)

When i saw this meme on fb, suddenly i felt that i miss being a student :) may halong kaba at excitement pag padating na ang examination week...lalo na kung finals na at graduating kapa. Hindi ko makalimutan yung mga ilang dilemmas ko bago ako maka-graduate...thesis, defense, deadlines, walang tulog... pero parang nag-eenjoy naman ako. Bukod sa wala naman masyado pressure being with my so cool blockmates. I admit na-experience ko din mangopya at mapasahan ng kodigo. Yes, im not what you think i was back in college :)  Sabi nila mas masaya daw ang highschool...pero para sa akin, mas na-enjoy ko ang college life ko :)

Sa mga mag-eexam ngayon....Goodluck! :)

Isang Bukas na Sulat Mula sa Anak na Naulila

6 years had passed, it was 2nd day of January when my Papa left us...yes..just right after the new year celebration. And the saddest part was, he wasnt with us when he left...that's how painful it was. I can say that my family and I are all okay now..no more crying nights, but his memories, love and our thoughts of him will always remain.

Anyway, let me share you again my entry 6 years ago...about a daughter who's longing and in pain..her grieving, and love for her father.


"..parang kelan lang kasama pa namin ang papa ko...parang hanggang ngayon naririnig ko pa ang boses nya...hanggang ngayon di parin ako makapaniwalang wala na sya...kahit minsan hindi sumagi sa isip ko na pwede palang mangyari sa pamilya ko ang ganito. Ang akala ko taga-attend lang ako ng lamay ng patay ng may patay ng kamag-anak, ng kaibigan..taga-comfort ng nangungulila...pero ngayon ako naman ang nakakaranas ng sakit na naramdaman nila...hindi ko napaghandan. Dalawang buwan pa lang ang nakakalipas ng mamatay ang papa ko dahil sa atake sa puso...hanggang ngayon di pa ako nakakabangon sa sakit sa pagkawala nya...parang walang kapantay na sakit...Nasasaktan ako hindi lang dahil sa hindi na namin sya makakasama kundi dahil din sa panghihinayang at pagsisisi sa mga bagay na di ko nagawa sa kanya noong buhay pa sya. Ansakit sobra lalo na kapag naiisip ko na wala na talagang pag-asa para makabawi sa kanya dahil huli na ang lahat...Naaalala ko pa yung naging sagutan namin ilang oras bago sya umalis ng bahay...hindi ko alam na yun na pala ang huling pag-uusap namin...malungkot syang nagpaalam at hindi ko sya kinibo habang bumababa sya sa hagdan. Lagi naman kase ganon...aalis sya ng nagtatampo kase napagalitan namin sya dahil pabaya sya sa kalusugan nya, hindi sya nakikinig sa mga paalala...'alam mo na, pag tumatanda na nagiging pasaway na talaga. Umaalis syang nagtatampo dahil napagalitan pero makalipas ang ilang linggo bumabalik ng parang walang nangyari, nakangiti, masaya na para bang na-miss nya kami...mula kase nung magkaproblema ang pamilya namin naapektuhan din yung pagsasama nila ng mama ko kaya mas pinili nyang wag na sa amin tumira kaya dumadalaw-dalaw nalang sya. Pero sa mga oras na yun sino ang mag-aakala na yun na pala ang huling dalaw nya sa bahay...kung alam ko lang hindi ko na sana sya pinagalitan, di ko na sana sya inaway...Naaalala ko pa yung malulungkot nyang mata habang nakatingin sa malayo...hindi ko alam kung anong iniisip nya o kung malungkot ba sya...walang nakakaalam kung anong nasa isip nya o nararamdaman kase hindi ko naman sya madalas kausapin noon, madalas hindi sya napapansin. Inaamin ko naapektuhan ang relasyon namin sa kanya bilang mga anak nya noong nagkaproblema ang pamilya namin pero noong tinanggap namin sya uli sa bahay, muli naming binuksan ang puso namin sa kanya...hindi man ganon kadali maibalik ang dati pero pinipilit naming maiayos ang lahat. Mahal na mahal namin sya pero hindi namin nasabi sa kanya yun dahil hindi naman talaga kami vocal sa nararamdaman namin sa kanya, kahit sa simpleng pagyakap sa kanya hindi namin nagawa...kaya sobra akong nagsisisi at nanghihinayang dahil huli na...Madalas sinisisi ko ang sarili ko dahil hindi ko inisip noon na pwede pala syang mawala sa isang iglap...sana naiparamdam ko muna sa kanya kung gaano ko sya kamahal at kung gaano ako ka-swerte na sya ang naging tatay ko pero hindi na mangyayari yun. Totoo nga yung kasabihan na nasa huli ang pag-sisisi...Sa pagkawala nya saka ko naisip at naramdaman kung gaano sya kahalaga, saka ko naappreciate yung mga nagawa nya noon sa amin, kung ano yung mga katangian nya na sobrang maipagmamalaki ko na wala sa ibang tatay...Papa kung alam mo lang hinding-hindi kita ipagpapalit sa ibang tatay...nangungulila ako ngayon sa mga yakap mo...sana nasabi ko sayo na mahal na mahal kita...Gabi-gabi sa pagtulog ko ibinubulong ko sa hangin na mahal kita at namimiss na kita...umaasang naririnig mo ito...Papa, andaya mo hindi kana bumalik, hindi mo na ako binigyan ng pagkakataon na makabawi sayo. Nakakalungkot sobra pero iniisip ko na lang masaya ka na ngayon...sana binabantayan mo kami...pa, mahal na mahal ka namin at andito ka lang sa puso namin habambuhay..."

faded in paper...but not in memory.

Wish I could.....

I wonder where you are right now...wish i could see you somehow..

Cant seem to ease the pain since you've been gone, nothing has been the same

How i wish you could stayed awhile, how i wish that i could see you smile for me...

Wish i could hold you in my arms,keep me safe and keep me warm....

But now all i can do is hope and long for you....

You're in my mind every night and day,

Wishing you're part of me in every way

'cause all i wanted to do was to always be there for you

Wish that i could tell you just how much i love you...

I guess i should not fear 'cause i know God can heal

and He's telling me you're alright and there's no need to worry...

Im sorry if i had known maybe you couldve been here with me...

Wish that i could tell you just how much i love you....

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Happy New Year Bloggers

Today is the first blank page of a 365 day book. Make sure to write a good one. Happy New Year to all!!! May our resolutions for the days ahead stay firm turning all our dreams to reality & all our efforts into great achievements with God's help ♥


Happy New Year Bloggers! 

Merry Christmas To Ye All Bloggers!

May we all have a very meaningful Christmas! 

My pet Lois posing for her Christmas photo.... Aw! she is too cute for my life :)

Addicted to Fifty Shades

BLOG ON LEAVE. Will resume until the blog owner had finished reading the book Fifty Shades of Grey Trilogy :)

I’m not exactly a die-hard book reader, but I cant help myself from reading this book... the story is so awesome :)

Keeping Good Memories Alive

           I am a very sentimental person. I keep things (kahit parang basura) when I feel they are really worth keeping, or even say goodbye to my old things I used/kept for a very long time. I remember when my mom freaked out after cleaning my room and saw an old box with candy wrappers from candies I ate with my best friend in gradeschool, bus tickets from my very first provincial trip, Mc Donalds softdrink's plastic cup from my first barkada gimik :p, pair of used chopsticks..of course I cleaned them first :) and other old stuff with lots of memories behind 'em.  I love keeping all the good sweet memories alive. 

As I browsed through my old blog posts , I saw this letter I wrote for my tsinelas na pambahay a few years back. Got those slippers as a Christmas gift from my favorite cousin. I think I've been with those slippers for almost 4 years :) 

"Sa umaga pa lang pag-gising ko ikaw agad ang hinahanap ko...ganun din kapag pagdating ko ng bahay ikaw agad ang hanap ng mata ko. Umiinit agad ang ulo ko kapag nakikita kong ginagamit ka ng iba...lalo na pag hawak ka ni mama habang humahabol ng ipis. Kaya hindi kita masisisi kung bumigay ka na kasi sa dami ba naman ng dinaanan mo alam kong suko kana. Antagal din ng panahon na natulungan mo ako...salamat ha..paalam"

I'm Not A Writer

          I am not a writer. Yes, I have ideas in mind...I have funny stories to tell...I have big dreams to share but everytime I start composing an entry, things become blur so I end up talking to myself "what's the point?"Have you ever felt that kind of feeling that you really really want to write something and you can't, because you don't know exactly where to start? Or that funny feeling that you thought you made up a great entry then found out that it's all grammatically wrong? Or when you start writing and ideas are pouring in, your boss calls for an emergency meeting?I wished writing comes naturally to me like dancing or singing. When I was younger, I used to write poems and I love to write mails. I really thought that I would grow up to be a writer or an editor of a newspaper. But I became a Psychologist...more on talking. God is truly smart. He knows I won't be able to do things better through writing so He gave me something that He knows and I know I'm good at. That's why despite the fact that I still want to compose and write short stories, I don't really feel bad that I can't write well because I know I am not a writer  :)

Everything I Need

I couldn't help but to share this wonderful song. Sobrang nakaka-LSS (Last Song Syndrome). I've been playing this over and over again and yet hindi nakakasawa. There is something in this song that captures my heart..maybe the message of the song? or the music? Nah! The whole package!!! Plus the sweet voices of the choir...I really love it the first time I heard it. Best song to play during weddings. Nakaka-inlove...kakainis! Parang gusto mo na magpakasal agad pag narinig nyo 'to :) So inspiring.. imagine your dream guy staring at you while this song is playing in the air *pop! dreaming*

Here, take time to play this video of the song EVERYTHING I NEED, music and lyrics by one of the Philippine's best songwriters, Ms Trina Belamide

"You are everything I need, I've been searching for a lifetime and indeed,

I found what I've been looking for...

You're everything I need...now and forevermore"

Long Overdue Baguio Trip

My group Manila Wedding Singers, together with my mom headed up-north to attend my cousin's wedding last January 21, 2012. We stayed there for 2 days. The  first day was the wedding where my cousins and I reunited after a very long years of not seeing each other. Then a day after the wedding was a whole day of fun walking, sight seeing, picture taking and fx taxi ride :). Here are some of my favorite photos from our long overdue Baguio trip.

View from the balcony of our home stay

Lazy heads! 

with my sister Rhea who happens to be a member of MWS too! :)

In front of the house where we stayed. Picture taking before leaving :)

First stop: Baguio Cathedral. 

 Located at Cathedral Loop, adjacent to Session Road. It is distinct for its rose-colored exterior, twin spires and traditional stained glass windows make it famous and is one of the most photographed iconic buildings in Baguio City. It served as an evacuation center during the Japanese occupation of the Philippines during World War II.

Source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Baguio_Cathedral

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If you've been in Baguio, I'm sure you already knew where exactly in Baguio I was! :) Yes! That was at the Mines View Park where you'll be welcomed by this famous and so adorable St.Bernard named Douglas :)

and one of the funny and awesome things that Mines View Park will offer you is they will let you experience to wear their native clothing "the Igorot costume" 

Behind me are the different native products of Baguio. All of them are made of rattan, woven furniture and sculptured wooden materials, hand-made by their natives. You can buy them at their cheapest price.

Baguio is known by its beautiful fresh flowers and sculptured wooden products.

The famous Mines View overlooking

At the Mansion House

It is the official summer residence of the president of the Philippines.

You can read The Mansion's history here

Goofing around the Mansion :)

with Rhea, Ben and kuya Joven

:)

 Camp John Hay 

Mom loves the cute flowers :)

Breath taking view inside PMA

Attention!!!!

                          with sister                     cousins Melanie and Ray                  with mom :)

Bridge of Love

A bridge in Paris where couples hang locks on it with their names then throw the key into the river... even though the friendship/relationship may end, they can’t remove the lock. It stays there forever, as remembrance to someone once a part of their life. 

Gusto ko makapunta din dito....kasama si........

Photo 1 spotted via http://www.viewfound.ca/index.php?showimage=314
Photos 2,3 spotted via http://www.dailymail.co.uk/travel/article-2030081/Italy-declares-war-love-padlocks-blighting-famous-tourist-sights.html

'The air shivers of things fleeing.'

I'm always fascinated with butterflies whether in photos or for real. These series of photos by French photographer Emmanuelle Brisson are so stunning. I find these photos weird or "scary" at first (looks like posters in a horror film), but after a  minute of staring, I realized how artistic the photographer is.  The series is entitled 'L'air frissonne des choses qui s'enfuient,' which translates to 'The air shivers of things fleeing.'

Photos spotted via http://www.mymodernmet.com

Yes...you really are.. :)

Sad August

I know  this actually happened a couple of weeks ago, but since I just got back to blog, I wont miss this chance to share this nightmare that happened to my country. Last August 7, Philippines went to a depressing moment under the terror of the endless rain due to southwest monsoon or Habagat.  Numerous lives have ended, many tears have been shed to the lost homes and countless families have been affected. I hate the feeling of this. Although, I am not a first-hand victim of the flood, it aches me to see my country this way. 

Habagat Aftermath

People were forced to leave their houses

Rescuers dig through the mud in search for survivors in landslide. 

People at the evacuation site

In spite of what happened, there are some scenes that made me proud of being a Filipino :)

Fortunate kababayans reached their hands to help the flood victims.

And here's another reason to smile...

for better or for worse eh? :)

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